Where are you?

I should not be feeling this way. I shouldn’t want to know where you are and who you are with, what you are doing and why. But I do. My heart stirs every time I check your green light and it isn’t on. I shouldn’t be like this anymore. I’ve gotten so much progress I can’t fall back now. I shouldn’t. I mustn’t. I can’t.

Give me strength. Help me turn a blind eye. Cut it. Turn it off.